Thursday, July 24, 2008
yuppie, i have started to count down to my last day of work already - 31 July! 5 more working days only. i cant wait to stop working. i dont like the feeling of working everyday, 24 hours ticking past and yet no sense of achievement... working life should not be like that right? i went to smu career talk today, i really hope i can find a career(after i grad) that i like so that i can work happily the rest of my life!!!
My last few days in Abacus Capital... i have alot alot alot of mixed feelings... i guess i have developed strong feelings for this company. i cant wait to leave, but also wish to stay on. AHH! Colleague are especially nice to me these few days, getting treats everyday since last friday! HAHA... Coffee Club on last Fri with xxx, Laksa treat from sunshine boy on Mon, TCC with new secretary on Tues, Teabreak treat from smu guy(NL) on Wed... im quite blessed, arent i? :D
i will miss abacus capital after all. i will miss all my colleague. i will miss all the responsibilities im given. i will miss all of the things i did. ~
My last few days in Abacus Capital... i have alot alot alot of mixed feelings... i guess i have developed strong feelings for this company. i cant wait to leave, but also wish to stay on. AHH! Colleague are especially nice to me these few days, getting treats everyday since last friday! HAHA... Coffee Club on last Fri with xxx, Laksa treat from sunshine boy on Mon, TCC with new secretary on Tues, Teabreak treat from smu guy(NL) on Wed... im quite blessed, arent i? :D
i will miss abacus capital after all. i will miss all my colleague. i will miss all the responsibilities im given. i will miss all of the things i did. ~
what we could have been, 9:04 PM.
Friday, July 18, 2008
i kept wonder, why do adults not cry? why am i starting to hold back my tears now that im only 19 yrs old??? i read this article: How to Cry. It says crying is our first language. Yep, as babies, we cried to tell our parents something we need, something that is hurting us...Truly, to me, crying serves 2 purpose. 1) to tell that something is hurting. 2) to release the pain. Somehow, i always feel better after a good cry. cos crying is a natural release? crying is the single best thing that i could do to relieve stress, anger or sadness.
The article says: The first step to learning how to cry is to own and accept your pain. The important thing is to discover and understand why you are hurting. This will be a painful process, and you might find that once you discover the core of your pain, you will begin crying all on your own. Just remember to be gentle with yourself, and when the tears come, just let it all out. It’s for the best.
yea, i do know how to cry. i am one who cry easily just by watching touching korean dramas. Emotions emerge within me, and tears just flow...at least, i used to be. recently, i have been holding back alot and i do feel suffocated! i dislike the stares that people give when one cries. there seems to be some sort of discrimination against people who cry? our society seems to see crying as a form of weakness... that's why we seldom see guys cry, isnt it?
how i wish that im still a kid. crying seems to be a previledge that is entitled only to babies and kids. i want to cry. i dont want to be an adult...
i do realised that as an 19-years-old young adult, we no longer celebrate Youth Day. (it was only few weeks ago) unknowingly, people held higher expectations of us, heavier responsibilities, creating invisible amount of stress onto us. two more days of 11 Feb and i will be an adult. i look forward to a party that i may be able to hold, but not the fact that i would be an adult. who would, right?
i just feel so old. (will get scoldings from my colleagues if i say that to them!) time really flies. i used to rely alot on my dad. he will take care of everything for me. but when i went to the bank with him to get my bank loan for smu today(sat morning), i realised how much he have aged. roles should have changed already. i am trying to reverse our roles. i find it difficult though. afterall, i used to be a blessed girl under the protective wings of my parents for the past 19 years...
suddenly i rmb the song sang by S.H.E: wo bu xiang zhan da. i dont want to grow up. i've got this feeling right now... i miss everyday of my child-hood and youth-hood. do every teenage, or adult-to-be go through this feeling like me???
do not live in your past, live in your presence. my p4 tuition kid said that to me one day you know. i was alittle surprised...it make sense to me as i thought about it...i will most probably miss my adult-hood when i am an old lady! i must say, my tuition kid is really one rare mature smarty pants and an ultimate joker too. mayb kids nowadays are forced to mature too young ba. not good not good. lucky i am born not too late!
*i just tend to think alot alot* end of my poooool of thoughts.
The article says: The first step to learning how to cry is to own and accept your pain. The important thing is to discover and understand why you are hurting. This will be a painful process, and you might find that once you discover the core of your pain, you will begin crying all on your own. Just remember to be gentle with yourself, and when the tears come, just let it all out. It’s for the best.
yea, i do know how to cry. i am one who cry easily just by watching touching korean dramas. Emotions emerge within me, and tears just flow...at least, i used to be. recently, i have been holding back alot and i do feel suffocated! i dislike the stares that people give when one cries. there seems to be some sort of discrimination against people who cry? our society seems to see crying as a form of weakness... that's why we seldom see guys cry, isnt it?
how i wish that im still a kid. crying seems to be a previledge that is entitled only to babies and kids. i want to cry. i dont want to be an adult...
i do realised that as an 19-years-old young adult, we no longer celebrate Youth Day. (it was only few weeks ago) unknowingly, people held higher expectations of us, heavier responsibilities, creating invisible amount of stress onto us. two more days of 11 Feb and i will be an adult. i look forward to a party that i may be able to hold, but not the fact that i would be an adult. who would, right?
i just feel so old. (will get scoldings from my colleagues if i say that to them!) time really flies. i used to rely alot on my dad. he will take care of everything for me. but when i went to the bank with him to get my bank loan for smu today(sat morning), i realised how much he have aged. roles should have changed already. i am trying to reverse our roles. i find it difficult though. afterall, i used to be a blessed girl under the protective wings of my parents for the past 19 years...
suddenly i rmb the song sang by S.H.E: wo bu xiang zhan da. i dont want to grow up. i've got this feeling right now... i miss everyday of my child-hood and youth-hood. do every teenage, or adult-to-be go through this feeling like me???
do not live in your past, live in your presence. my p4 tuition kid said that to me one day you know. i was alittle surprised...it make sense to me as i thought about it...i will most probably miss my adult-hood when i am an old lady! i must say, my tuition kid is really one rare mature smarty pants and an ultimate joker too. mayb kids nowadays are forced to mature too young ba. not good not good. lucky i am born not too late!
*i just tend to think alot alot* end of my poooool of thoughts.
what we could have been, 10:39 PM.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
i LOVE days like today :D
where no bosses are around,
where i have not much work to do,
where i can chit chat with zoe full-time online,
where i can google as much as i like,
where i can blog twice a day :D
i will no longer complain of boredom.
bcos i will find things to interest myself! like now...
i have decided to google on about moles...
HAA!
I shall share some interesting facts!...
do you know that moles are form by Melanin?
it is a natural pigment that gives your skin its color...
Normally, melanin is distributed evenly, but sometimes melanocytes grow together in a cluster, giving rise to moles.
and most people have between 10 and 40 moles...*do u???*
majority of moles are harmless, but in rare cases, moles may become cancerous!!!
and most Chinese believe that moles at different places has a different significance...
check this MOLE MAP out!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/hey-gem/75173087/
i have no idea if this is reliable, but kind of interesting ;)
woots, zoe's bf has been a great help! *google*
where no bosses are around,
where i have not much work to do,
where i can chit chat with zoe full-time online,
where i can google as much as i like,
where i can blog twice a day :D
i will no longer complain of boredom.
bcos i will find things to interest myself! like now...
i have decided to google on about moles...
HAA!
I shall share some interesting facts!...
do you know that moles are form by Melanin?
it is a natural pigment that gives your skin its color...
Normally, melanin is distributed evenly, but sometimes melanocytes grow together in a cluster, giving rise to moles.
and most people have between 10 and 40 moles...*do u???*
majority of moles are harmless, but in rare cases, moles may become cancerous!!!
and most Chinese believe that moles at different places has a different significance...
check this MOLE MAP out!
http://www.flickr.com/photos/hey-gem/75173087/
i have no idea if this is reliable, but kind of interesting ;)
woots, zoe's bf has been a great help! *google*
what we could have been, 4:10 PM.
WAH, war between women are SCARY!!!
Especially between two chia za bor(fierce women).
Let me summarise the WAR between 2 chia za bor...
(INTRODUCING CHARACTERS)
Chia za bor no. 1 is my 2nd boss while chia za bor no.2 is my colleague (xxx).
it all started off bcos my 1st boss(the korean-american) showed favouritism towards (xxx)
so, 2nd boss(his pet) got jealous and started to pick on (xxx)
*jealousy is a dangerous thing!*
*it is a common fact that the experience of jealousy can last much longer than the one of a basic emotion like anger, without losing its original intensity. *
*WAH, so dont play with it*
Chia za bor 1 started talking bad about czb no. 2 to 1st boss.
she also kept making things difficult for czb no. 2,
giving lots of work for czb no.2 to do when she wants to go home(only at 6pm?), causing her to OT almost everyday...
she ask czb no.2 to redo every piece of work she have done...
Ooo, czb no.2, as a chia za bor, cant take it anymore...
and the WAR started!
(WAR)
so, czb no. 2 rebel and kept taking leave...
*she took a total of 12 days of leave and 4 days of MC within 2 months lah!*
and finally, she resign...
czb no.1 is equally fierce, she requested czb no.1 to leave immediately though her last day was 8 aug! *as she dont want to see czb no.2 anymore*
czb no.2 was no one to be bullied, so she says "ok, but pay me till 8 aug"
...........................................................................................................................
*after much struggling*
czb no.2 won! czb no.1 has no choice but to pay her till 8 aug despite her not coming to work!
Wah.......scary war and im stuck in between can.......
now that czb no.2 is no longer coming back to work, i have to take over all her job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OT almost everyday lo, while company still pay czb no.2 for staying at home and watch tv...
really have no idea why company is so dumb, why czb no.1 has to be so stubborn.
im the only one who suffer, taking in all the aftermath of their WAR!
arrrgh... irresponsible and childish adults!
but i kind of enjoy watching them fighting lah...
this must be the price i got to pay........... :(
Especially between two chia za bor(fierce women).
Let me summarise the WAR between 2 chia za bor...
(INTRODUCING CHARACTERS)
Chia za bor no. 1 is my 2nd boss while chia za bor no.2 is my colleague (xxx).
it all started off bcos my 1st boss(the korean-american) showed favouritism towards (xxx)
so, 2nd boss(his pet) got jealous and started to pick on (xxx)
*jealousy is a dangerous thing!*
*it is a common fact that the experience of jealousy can last much longer than the one of a basic emotion like anger, without losing its original intensity. *
*WAH, so dont play with it*
Chia za bor 1 started talking bad about czb no. 2 to 1st boss.
she also kept making things difficult for czb no. 2,
giving lots of work for czb no.2 to do when she wants to go home(only at 6pm?), causing her to OT almost everyday...
she ask czb no.2 to redo every piece of work she have done...
Ooo, czb no.2, as a chia za bor, cant take it anymore...
and the WAR started!
(WAR)
so, czb no. 2 rebel and kept taking leave...
*she took a total of 12 days of leave and 4 days of MC within 2 months lah!*
and finally, she resign...
czb no.1 is equally fierce, she requested czb no.1 to leave immediately though her last day was 8 aug! *as she dont want to see czb no.2 anymore*
czb no.2 was no one to be bullied, so she says "ok, but pay me till 8 aug"
...........................................................................................................................
*after much struggling*
czb no.2 won! czb no.1 has no choice but to pay her till 8 aug despite her not coming to work!
Wah.......scary war and im stuck in between can.......
now that czb no.2 is no longer coming back to work, i have to take over all her job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OT almost everyday lo, while company still pay czb no.2 for staying at home and watch tv...
really have no idea why company is so dumb, why czb no.1 has to be so stubborn.
im the only one who suffer, taking in all the aftermath of their WAR!
arrrgh... irresponsible and childish adults!
but i kind of enjoy watching them fighting lah...
this must be the price i got to pay........... :(
what we could have been, 8:39 AM.
Monday, July 14, 2008
MORNING!
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My weekends were kind of a blur...
dont know what is wrong with me, i feel so tired, lost...
i seemed to have lost contact with many frens suddenly...
wonder what are they doing...?
Miss all of them!
they all seemed so occupied with their own life...
she says weekends are reserved for her bf...
hai~ really no time for me? :(((
sometimes, i hope my frens are not attached...
at least i hope they dont stick to their boyfrens...
hai~ im just being selfish........
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anyway,
i went to a dance performance on saturday night...
DANCE GARAGE by smu hip hop dance group...
I LOVE THEIR PERFORMANCE!!!
it was 100% good, 101% passionate!
it was 1.5hours long, but i just wont get bored...
Really great! i feel like dancing already :D
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My weekends were kind of a blur...
dont know what is wrong with me, i feel so tired, lost...
i seemed to have lost contact with many frens suddenly...
wonder what are they doing...?
Miss all of them!
they all seemed so occupied with their own life...
she says weekends are reserved for her bf...
hai~ really no time for me? :(((
sometimes, i hope my frens are not attached...
at least i hope they dont stick to their boyfrens...
hai~ im just being selfish........
----------------------
anyway,
i went to a dance performance on saturday night...
DANCE GARAGE by smu hip hop dance group...
I LOVE THEIR PERFORMANCE!!!
it was 100% good, 101% passionate!
it was 1.5hours long, but i just wont get bored...
Really great! i feel like dancing already :D
what we could have been, 8:32 AM.
Friday, July 11, 2008
YAY. today is friday!!! woots...
one last day to weekend :)))
ytd i went shopping with ting and mich...
we comb zara sales!
i really miss hanging out with our breakfast culb...
gab n chen wei n ww, where r u guys???
ee... my boss is a MEANIE
tell ya... my boss(1) is the founder of my company, also the managing director *he is a korean-american*
there are 3 other bosses la... one female indonesian boss(2), one chinese boss(3) and one india boss(4)
*4 different races!* lol
anyway, my boss(1) dont get along well with boss(4)
boss(2) is pet of boss(1)
boss(1) dislikes the smell of the food that boss(4) brings... as boss(4) likes to bring home cooked food, like thai food, chi food..etc
so, he(1) asked her (2) to ask me to throw away the mirowave oven so that boss(4) cant bring home cooked food!!!
so MEAN!
and i cant do so as boss(4) will scold me,
they r making things so difficult for me!
he(1) is so MEAN!!!
hai~ what sld i do?
one last day to weekend :)))
ytd i went shopping with ting and mich...
we comb zara sales!
i really miss hanging out with our breakfast culb...
gab n chen wei n ww, where r u guys???
ee... my boss is a MEANIE
tell ya... my boss(1) is the founder of my company, also the managing director *he is a korean-american*
there are 3 other bosses la... one female indonesian boss(2), one chinese boss(3) and one india boss(4)
*4 different races!* lol
anyway, my boss(1) dont get along well with boss(4)
boss(2) is pet of boss(1)
boss(1) dislikes the smell of the food that boss(4) brings... as boss(4) likes to bring home cooked food, like thai food, chi food..etc
so, he(1) asked her (2) to ask me to throw away the mirowave oven so that boss(4) cant bring home cooked food!!!
so MEAN!
and i cant do so as boss(4) will scold me,
they r making things so difficult for me!
he(1) is so MEAN!!!
hai~ what sld i do?
what we could have been, 8:34 AM.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Woots! no one in the office at my side now. :D
so happy... they are all at a meeting for some mid year review...
i went smu for maltriculation ytd... gosh, i spent 300 plus there!
on registration fee and camp fees...
i have signed up for 3 camps,
1. freshman compulsory camp
2. business camp
3. extremist camp
is 3 too much???
the extremist camp was a last min decision, a bit regret joining already...
cos its the most expensive- $50
but i heard that it is worth the money... dont know.
will tell u when i've gone for it! :D :D :D
and i've finished the 2 compulsory talks at smu ytd... the cip talk and library talk...
it was very very very boring!!! in the end i spent my whole afternoon at smu... :s
could only join the aunties in the evening to celebrate sinyan's birthday...
heehee, but at least i joined them for a great dinner at White Dog Cafe... and shiyaya started rushing us home to watch beach ball babes.. LOL
now, i really cant wait for my job to end,... now that i know there are 3 camps line up for me
cant wait to leave on 31 July!!!
no income but = freedom!
CANT WAIT!
*abit envy yaya*
so happy... they are all at a meeting for some mid year review...
i went smu for maltriculation ytd... gosh, i spent 300 plus there!
on registration fee and camp fees...
i have signed up for 3 camps,
1. freshman compulsory camp
2. business camp
3. extremist camp
is 3 too much???
the extremist camp was a last min decision, a bit regret joining already...
cos its the most expensive- $50
but i heard that it is worth the money... dont know.
will tell u when i've gone for it! :D :D :D
and i've finished the 2 compulsory talks at smu ytd... the cip talk and library talk...
it was very very very boring!!! in the end i spent my whole afternoon at smu... :s
could only join the aunties in the evening to celebrate sinyan's birthday...
heehee, but at least i joined them for a great dinner at White Dog Cafe... and shiyaya started rushing us home to watch beach ball babes.. LOL
now, i really cant wait for my job to end,... now that i know there are 3 camps line up for me
cant wait to leave on 31 July!!!
no income but = freedom!
CANT WAIT!
*abit envy yaya*
what we could have been, 4:54 PM.
Friday, July 4, 2008
my throat feels so itchy ... gonna fall sick soon :s
i deserve it... for eating choco ice cream... LoL
SMU is SO CUTE! hahaha...
Lee Kong Chian School of Business sent me a package. (those kind that you get from clinic to contain medication.)
it contains a pack of 21 VITAMINS with 3 different flavours.
It is written like this on the package:
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NAME: FLORENCE HO
PRESCRIPTION: FOR PROTECTION AGAINST ALL THE FUN YOU WILL FIND IN BONDUE CAMP 2008. (STRICTLY FOR STARTING SCHOOL WITH A BANG!)
DESCRIPTION:
SIGN UP FOR BONDUE CAMP 2008, 1-3 AUGUST 2008 & 6-8 AUGUST 2008 DURING MALTRICULATION, 7TH TO 9TH JULY 2008, AT BONDUE BOOTH!
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HAHA, i like their idea of advertising for the school of business camp.
SO CUTE~
kind of surprised me. :D
my mum thought it was a prank,
my sis thought it was sweets,
my dad even thought i ordered medicine online when he passed me the letter!
*cos i ordered clothes online b4 :P*
HAHAHA...
i deserve it... for eating choco ice cream... LoL
SMU is SO CUTE! hahaha...
Lee Kong Chian School of Business sent me a package. (those kind that you get from clinic to contain medication.)
it contains a pack of 21 VITAMINS with 3 different flavours.
It is written like this on the package:
---
NAME: FLORENCE HO
PRESCRIPTION: FOR PROTECTION AGAINST ALL THE FUN YOU WILL FIND IN BONDUE CAMP 2008. (STRICTLY FOR STARTING SCHOOL WITH A BANG!)
DESCRIPTION:
SIGN UP FOR BONDUE CAMP 2008, 1-3 AUGUST 2008 & 6-8 AUGUST 2008 DURING MALTRICULATION, 7TH TO 9TH JULY 2008, AT BONDUE BOOTH!
---
HAHA, i like their idea of advertising for the school of business camp.
SO CUTE~
kind of surprised me. :D
my mum thought it was a prank,
my sis thought it was sweets,
my dad even thought i ordered medicine online when he passed me the letter!
*cos i ordered clothes online b4 :P*
HAHAHA...
what we could have been, 11:45 PM.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
today, i had a really busy day as xxx is on leave. she will be on leave for the whole of this week till next week. ~kind of miss her ~ HAHAHA... i have no idea y...
i have a weird relationship with her... !
She did backstabbed me before, yet she had also stood up for me when my boss misunderstood me. She pushes work for me to do and bullies me all the time, yet she also teaches me many things. She made used of me all the time, yet she is also nice to me times and times.
She treats me like her maid sometimes, like a friend sometimes, and like a daughter sometimes...
hmmm... She ordered me to buy drinks for her when she is thirsty, asked me to pack food for her when she is lazy;
yet... She gave me free magazines for nothing, treat me to lunch randomly;
She even sms me at nights to ask if im asleep, check on me and asked about guys in my life...
she is weird in some way...
but she have influenced me alot, and i am probably getting to like her... ?
i used to dislike her quite alot...
probably i have gotten used to her weirdness...
or mayb absence makes the heart grow fonder?
no idea............... HAa
i have so much to blog about today, jus dont know where to start. hmmm...
went to NA poly with yaya, jane, zoe, jeanna after work...
we went to see a performance by siti and her cca
i personally think the performance was really not bad, was rather impressed by their high level of entertainment...
was especially glad that we got to watch it for FREE... lol... im such a cheapo*i know that*
guess we sld have paid the $2 (they deserve it), but im still glad we didnt...HAHAHA!
*got to eat nice brownie too* yum yum...
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recently, there is some unknown NS guy(A) who started smsing me
he got my number from some fren of mine (B)
(B) told (A) some stuff about me and (A) used those to chat with me
today, i found out who (B) is.
he may not do it intentionally, but had really pissed me off :( :( :(
i felt quite disappointed in (B), and also felt DUMB for believing (A)...
i guess he(B) sld be feeling guilty already, i know he will be... unless he is really an ASS...!
NS guys who are bored, pls dont resort to do this. its TOTALLY childish and immature and irritating. *lucky (K) told me the truth*
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anywayyy, im quite looking forward to tomorrow. i can predict that it will be a busy day once again.
but there will be a new temp staff joining me...
quite excited... HEE :D
GOOD NIGHT!
i have a weird relationship with her... !
She did backstabbed me before, yet she had also stood up for me when my boss misunderstood me. She pushes work for me to do and bullies me all the time, yet she also teaches me many things. She made used of me all the time, yet she is also nice to me times and times.
She treats me like her maid sometimes, like a friend sometimes, and like a daughter sometimes...
hmmm... She ordered me to buy drinks for her when she is thirsty, asked me to pack food for her when she is lazy;
yet... She gave me free magazines for nothing, treat me to lunch randomly;
She even sms me at nights to ask if im asleep, check on me and asked about guys in my life...
she is weird in some way...
but she have influenced me alot, and i am probably getting to like her... ?
i used to dislike her quite alot...
probably i have gotten used to her weirdness...
or mayb absence makes the heart grow fonder?
no idea............... HAa
i have so much to blog about today, jus dont know where to start. hmmm...
went to NA poly with yaya, jane, zoe, jeanna after work...
we went to see a performance by siti and her cca
i personally think the performance was really not bad, was rather impressed by their high level of entertainment...
was especially glad that we got to watch it for FREE... lol... im such a cheapo*i know that*
guess we sld have paid the $2 (they deserve it), but im still glad we didnt...HAHAHA!
*got to eat nice brownie too* yum yum...
-----
recently, there is some unknown NS guy(A) who started smsing me
he got my number from some fren of mine (B)
(B) told (A) some stuff about me and (A) used those to chat with me
today, i found out who (B) is.
he may not do it intentionally, but had really pissed me off :( :( :(
i felt quite disappointed in (B), and also felt DUMB for believing (A)...
i guess he(B) sld be feeling guilty already, i know he will be... unless he is really an ASS...!
NS guys who are bored, pls dont resort to do this. its TOTALLY childish and immature and irritating. *lucky (K) told me the truth*
-----
anywayyy, im quite looking forward to tomorrow. i can predict that it will be a busy day once again.
but there will be a new temp staff joining me...
quite excited... HEE :D
GOOD NIGHT!
what we could have been, 10:54 PM.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
heyy, many good things happened to me ytd.
i have gotten my cheque for this month.$.$
i have gotten my pay for one of my tution..$$.$$
my boss(4th one, male) gave me a fountain pen(thanking me for helping him)...
not bad right?
but many bad things happened to me too.
i shall not go into details, just too saddening... :(
Felt bullied once again, felt angry at them (the ugliness of the ppl!)...
im feeling the incredibly toxic of holding grudges onto ppl who are MEAN to me,
felt suffocated, and wrapped up in a lot of hurt and pain...
Forgiveness is the fragrance of the violet which still clings fast to the heel that crushed it
i know, that i will feel better if i let go...
easy to say, hard to do.
God, please give me strength...to let go...!
i have gotten my cheque for this month.$.$
i have gotten my pay for one of my tution..$$.$$
my boss(4th one, male) gave me a fountain pen(thanking me for helping him)...
not bad right?
but many bad things happened to me too.
i shall not go into details, just too saddening... :(
Felt bullied once again, felt angry at them (the ugliness of the ppl!)...
im feeling the incredibly toxic of holding grudges onto ppl who are MEAN to me,
felt suffocated, and wrapped up in a lot of hurt and pain...
Forgiveness is the fragrance of the violet which still clings fast to the heel that crushed it
i know, that i will feel better if i let go...
easy to say, hard to do.
God, please give me strength...to let go...!
what we could have been, 1:45 PM.
